67735) Sadly the things I don’t like about myself are unchangeable things. I hate my face, my bone structure, I hate my body type. I know those won’t change even if I lose weight, but I still try. I have this constant battle inside of me between “I am fat, ugly and disgusting, I won’t eat more than just a bite to keep me alive ever again” and “I will never be beautiful whatever I do, so why suffer, I could as well be fat it won’t make a difference”.

Purging hurts my heart.